Monday, June 30, 2008

meredith serious..

well i have decided i am gonna write on every monday what happened on my fav tv show greys anatomy......what my opinions r on various characters , the plot ,the behaviour of various docs etc etc..

the most important things that happened previous week was christina accepted burke's proposal of marriage......it was lovely...callie and george got married....bailey opened a danny ducat memorial clinic with money izzie gave her......now christina was supposed to tell meredith that she has accepted burke's marriage proposal...and burke was supposed to announce to evrybody only after that....now christina doesnt find words how to tell meredith abt it...and soon meredith along with rest had to rush to a dockyard where a passenger ship had caught fire and there was emergencies everywhere...thats where while saving a person meredith falls in sea...

this week ie yesterday what happened was...izzie performs a bur hole surgery in a garage where a man is stuck beneath a car with chief and mark guiding her over the phone.....she is successful...saves a life as the people come from hospital to take the man to the hospital for further surgery....izzie is off probation :)

christina is busy treating patients from the calamity..doin what she can...and trying to find meredith...

alex is busy trying to calm relatives of patients from the calamity....and is busy trying to find a pregnant woman's relative who he had rescued......justin chambers does a fine job in this episode...he feels so helpless as he does not know how to announce to the relatives that not all patients have survived...not all people have been brought to the hospital...maybe their near and dear one cud be dead in the accident by the dock......he reaches out to them , but he too is aching from within......he tries to be the tough guy always...but today he is vulnerable seeing this mass calamity and unable to even help everyone locate their families...he says they r doin their best but he questions himself from within if their best is good enough???

george is trying to find a woman's child who is lost and he has lied to mother that he has found him so that she gives consent for the operation......he finds the child by the end of episode :)

derek realizes in a while meredith is missing....he spots a small girl who was with meredith where she was...and the girl points to the sea......well the part where they show derek coming up with unconscious meredith in his arms and thereafter is really emotional........i mean i am big fan of patrick dempsey but yest he jus bowled me over with his acting and not jus his good looks.......his face registered shock and helplessness and as he reaches the van he starts cardiac massage......he begs meredith to return.....and he is vigorously trying to revive her as the ambulance reaches hospital......as bailey sees them she takes meredith in the OR....asks derek to go out as he is no shape to do anything.....the chief goes in there....as burke comes dereks expressions of pleading to burke to revive meredith r too touching.......addison too goes in the OR....where they all r trying to revive meredith......mark sits with derek outside giving him strength.......first time in all these years after derek had caught mark and addison together does derek accepts mark's friendship...feels good someone is there with him outside the OR....accepts his strength..turns to him as mark understands derek's (his childhood and once upon time best friend's) grief.....izzie,george,alex and christina are outside the OR scared , giving each other their shoulder ,praying,hoping ,crying.....at the end of the episode meredith was sinking....

this is the hardest part of being a doctor...the helplessness u feel wen someone u love and care about is sick and u know there is not much u can do or that u have done u best and just have to wait for the rest... i dont have a lot of first hand experience as i am a dentist and dont generally deal with life threatening cases...but as my parents r into emergencies most of the time i kinda know how it feels.......ignorance is bliss they say and at such times u know why this quote was written....when u know all possible things that cud go wrong...all possible complications...even a small sign can mean a lot, cud be an indication of something thats majorly wrong....


still remember my mother's reluctance of having done my surgery under general anesthesia and opting for spinal anesthesia as it apparently has fewer known complications....and how she and dad lay awake whole night as i developed a funny complication (i had hiccups and sharp shooting pain in right shoulder due to irritation of right phrenic nerve)...wat caused this irritation gave my parents sleepless night as it cud be a variety of possibilities of things gone wrong (which i didnt know at that time) and possible major complications..

once i was in hospital with mom, dad had gone out....he had this old lady admitted in hospital for heart attack and she had improved a lot and was abt to be discharged....and while we were there in hospital she got another major attack....mom rushed...did all the emergency procedures....i too was helping her whatever i cud......and still as the lady worsened i had this sinking feeling in my stomach.......the helplessness i felt that even after doin humanly everything she succumbed.......i felt so terrible and she was not even a known person....u know then why they coined the phrase there is many a slip between the cup and the lip

imagine how it wud feel if its ur family who is a patient......wen my dad had met with an acccident and post surgery developed deep vein thrombosis (which he himself diagnosed) my mom was so scared as it cud lead to embolism of clot which is life threatening condition...wen she asked the hematologist the signs she should look out for which wud suggest embolism and emergency treatment for it to be given the doc said well u wont have time to do anything if embolism occurs....in a couple of minutes the damage is done...and u can imagine wat went thru her...she was so paranoid...

i guess only doctors believe in miracles not only coz they see them happen...but coz it is their only hope...that something still can work out...the belief keeps them going....keeps them striving even wen odds r against them....they desperately need to believe that something can happen thats beyond their reach....something that is unexplainable unexpected unheard but is known to happen once in a while... other people may just say verbally that they believe in miracles or not but doctors need it for survival, for their sanity.......they have little choice to believe otherwise

Sunday, June 29, 2008

addin colour :)

saw thoda pyar thoda magic over the weekend.....penning down a long list of movies i wanna see over next couple of months...
and some old movies i have not seen but wud like to catch up on it :

saw chameli recently on cd......will write reviews of all these movies once i see them.......jus wanted to make the blog a bit colorful and i was not coming up with any ideas what to write.....i mean i have ideas but have not come up with words to express them....like wanna write couple of book reviews abt the books i jus read.....my comments on romantic comedies....will pen down some nice poems i have read recently.........etc etc.....

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

love is...

love is...never having to say u r sorry
oliver to jenny in love story

u know u r in love when life as u know it ends
gerry to holly in P.S. I LOVE YOU

प्यार होता तब है जब तुम्हे कोई अच्छा लगता है
पर नीभता तब है जब उसे जो अच्छा लगता है तुम्हे अच्छा लगे
ajay to pia in U ME AUR HUM
(u fall in love wen u like someone
but the love is fulfilled when u start liking what the person u love likes...)

just felt like penning down some of the beautiful quotes i have come across and have stuck in my mind........i had got a mail in which children were asked to decsribe love....and they really gave some amazing answers......i think i remember a couple of them....will write those and try to search the mail and put up all the quotes on the blog.....

u know the person loves you when u feel ur name is safe in their mouth :)

love is when grandpa applies nail paint to grandma's toes as she cant bend coz of arthritis

love is really a simple thing.......we make it complex by mixing it confusing it with lot of stuff....it not as if love is all demanding.......small small things like these r sufficient to make a person feel loved.....there is no need to bring stars or give life for person u love........LIVE with the person u love.....if everyone of us tries to make the people we love smile half the problems of our lives will be solved i think.........
CHEERS to love life and smiles :)

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

monsoon memories..

this is my second monsoon in mumbai after a long break of five years.....feeling nostalgic this yr....didnt feel like this last yr...maybe last yr i was excited jus to be at home after a long long time...but this yr i seem to have settled down here at home...things have quietened down a bit i think...and as i see the rains sometimes drizzling sometimes cats and dogs i sit and reminisce how monsoon has been the most happening season of the yr....there are so many memories associated with rains....so many different situations where i was stranded with different people in different places....

as far as school memories go back i very well remember getting at least 3 or 4 holidays due to heavy rains....and my school being in a low lying area the area always got flooded and we got a holiday...one not so fond memory (for mithila) is wen it rained very heavily on mithila's birthday and the school was cancelled...she was not at all happy as she was dressed in a pretty velvet skirt and top and she cud not celebrate her birthday in school...i had a gala time teasing her abt it :)

then of course at agru's we had a wonderful time in rains....
once we were stranded at classes due to heavy rainfall....trains had stopped functioning....sagar sudeep mayur and me went to bandra in a bus as trains had stopped functioning in dadar......even in bandra trains were running late....and they were extremely crowded as everybody wanted to reach home asap...well so we cud not travel in the male (general ) compartment...the ladies was comparitively empty....so i told mayur sagar sudeep to come with me in ladies compartment...after initial reluctance they agreed but soon were repenting as the compartment got crowded and they were stranded in compartment full of females :)
anyways it was much better than travelling in general compartment wud have been....it was fun seeing their faces and their embarrassment but it was a memorable train journey and a wonderful memory with all of us being there for each other...sagar had uncle living near by but he preferred to travel with us back home than choosing easier option....we were stranded and it was raining heavily and we never knew how much time it will take for us to reach our respective homes.....still we were sure we will be fine as we were together

a couple if yrs back i and sudeep had gone to meet deepu at her college....it was a nice sunny day with no hint of probable rainfall.......after meetin her we were walking towards bandra station as we thought it was a nice day to walk...little did we know that its gonna start pouring...and we did have any jackets or anything....still it felt nice to walk in rain getting drenched totally rather than waiting in shelter waiting for rains to subside.....and by the time we reached station we drenched to the core......and then wen we entered the train we were only wet people and everyone was staring at us.....and we were coolly talking ignoring the stares....we cud not even sit in train as our neighbours wud get wet......so we jus stood and kept talking not looking here or there.....that was a fun journey.......

how can i forget 26th july 2005.......the heavy rains that flooded mumbai and most of the state....we had our final yr university exams going on......and as the rains gods vented their fury we people were stuck in our rooms....the exams were getting postponed some of them cancelled as the rains showed no signs of mellowing.....we didnt know what subject to study as we didnt know if the exams were going to be as per schedule or according to new schedule....such a confusion it was.....then from somewhere we got news that for next two days there are not gonna be any exams and further exams r going to take place as per schedule......every hour we had some new news......the second and third day as rains decreased in pune but not in mumbai there were news floating that exams in rest of state will take place except mumbai.....so then again we wud start studing.......during all this confusion i got so bored and confused as to what to study as there was some news that all exams for next three days were cancelled all over the state that i went to see SARKAR with vivekanand.........also around that time HARRY POTTER AND HALF BLOOD PRINCE was released.....initially i had planned to read it after the exams...but with so much of confusion i was not certain wen the exams wud actually get over......and i cud ont wait for a month to read that book right ;) so i bought the book that day and finished it during the exams......also vivek took me to see the flooded mulla mutha river.....it was an amazing sight......the water was flowing jus touching the under surface of the bridge.......i cud very well imagine how it wud have been a couple of days before wen it was flowing over the bridge..........ya and the exams instead of scheduled ten days got over in a month i think.....

this is one of my fondest memory of pune....even though we hated it back then......now as i think abt it , i have a smile on my face


Sunday, June 15, 2008

my perfect weekend

this weekend was an almost perfect weekend.......as perfect as it can be with all the limitations of humanly imperfections which we all cant escape...but these imperfections r wat make life interesting isn't it???? with everything perfectly perfect...everthing wud be so very predictable as there cant be many variations in perfection , right??? hmmm...as u folks think on this note i ll pen down my almost perfect weekend...

for the starters mithila was home...nearly after a month...and tomo she is going and wont be back for another month :(

saturday began on an auspicious note....it was gayatri jayanti.....coupled with ekadashi....so chinmaya mission vasai branch had organised havan where all were gonna chant gayatri mantra 1008 times ie do 11 malas.......had to get up early in morning for it (the imperfect part :)....i sat and chanted 9 malas...then i had to leave as i was getting late for clinic...

then again perfect part begins...there were not many patients...so got free by 1. 15 pm.....which is so rare on a sat morning...

had wonderful lunch...tindola nu shaak....mango ras...rotli...pacheti (tomato,boiled potato , cucumber chopped and mixed with yogurt.....salt to taste..and red chilly powderlittle bit....the resultant salad is jus so yum)

we had some rest......then left for powai as rujudidi and rushika had come from coimbatore as they were on their way to dubai......mithila drove the car both ways.....so it was good for me :) spent wonderful evening with anu , milanjiju ,jiju's parents ,and of course rujudidi and rushika....
played a lot with rushika........she is such a wonderful girl.......gonna miss her a lot till she is back in september.........

sunday morning got up late........aaramse.....then had wonderful breakfast of toast and tea with garlic bread and cheese.........helped little bit with housework......then watched tv.......had a great lunch of baigan ka bharta and bajra ki roti with lots of ghee .......helped with kitchen work then again watched tv........in evening went to beach......had a nice walk on the beach.........went to market....bought some vegetables......came home.....had world's best bhel for dinner........saw grey's anatomy......everything was perfect in this episode too.......christina says yes to burke's proposal of marriage.....callie and george r married.....meredith's mom got her memory at least for 1 day......finally meredith stands up to her mom and defends herself...........

i write this post (after a long long time i am writing again..feels good...very good)........all in all a perfect ending to an almost perfect weekend

Saturday, June 14, 2008

rajma (red kidney bean curry)


soak medium bowl rajma (red kidney beans) in water overnight...
boil and crush 2 potatoes

make the basic red gravy
simultaneously boil rajma in cooker....add salt to rajma...cook it till whistle blows thrice...or for 20 min (whichever is less)

add crushed potatoes to gravy...
then add rajma with the water to the gravy
let everything get mixed well...and turn off the burner after 10 min..

ur delicious rajma is ready...eat it with rice or bread.....
serve onions soaked in vinegar with it

Friday, June 6, 2008

quotes

some beautiful quotes that i think is a nice way to get back to blogging and also something that i wanna share with rest of world....hope u enjoy them too and learn something from them that helps u have a better life...

A SMILE IS A CURVE THAT SETS EVERYTHING STRAIGHT

THE BITTEREST TEARS SHED OVER GRAVES ARE FOR WORDS UNSAID AND DEEDS LEFT UNDONE
so dont be afraid to speak whats in ur heart......speak up even if u feel u might be hurt if u expose wats in ur heart...coz not speaking up is surely gonna hurt u more....do something at the risk of looking stupid or at the risk of not being appreciated....take the risk

IT IS DEATH THAT PROVIDES LIFE WITH ALL ITS MEANING
interesting isnt it? live life like there is no tomo...after all kal ho na ho :)